I’m starting to remember the reason we broke up. It all make sense now. This sounds really bad. (Sorry for the myriad of grammar mistakes in this post)

MSG TO LDR BOYFRIEND:

thanks beb, for that one vid. so yea, ummm, i kinda have come to my senses somewhat…i think ive reached my boiling point tonight.
i wonder, when u make decisions, say, u wannna try to be more ‘adventurous”, and what not, and of course those decisions have strings attached, might require u to spend less time w/ me, more w/ other ppl who are moooree adventurous, idk,..i dk what in ur mind right now, anyway, i wonder if i;m part of the equation, wonder if u ask urself, is this decision gunna hurt her?.idk, may sound ridiculous to you. but yea, ive always thought that u care abt me, till recently(?) uve been acting like a complete immature jerk..there i said it. i hope it just doesnt get to the point that i lose my respect on you. try to go over our aim convos, u sound like a jerk, and that is not the normal u.
cuz if we want to rekindle this once wonderful relationship, the effort should not only come from me, but from both of us. i can get tired of chasing u, but in the end im not gunna regret it, if u do happen to dump me, cuz i kno i did everything i could to save this.. rnt u even scared of losing me? gah.. i ask that myseld everyday, makes me all the more unconfident.i kno it may be just a phase ur going to, and i hate to give up and not be there as ure going thru that phase, but if u dont want me to be in it, what can i do? If u want to end our relationship,go, but u wont get that mutual “vote” from me because i kno i still love u, and i care deeply abt u.
If it’s jsut the case of not having time, having conflicting sched, no physical contact( ikno this is a big prt of a relationship, i hate to be in this situation too as much as U do!, but if i can endure it, why cant you???WHY?), and if ure really that weak and ready to give up our relationship, go, but think thru it. I kno i’ve been repetitive recently, but it seems like ure not taking my point as seriously.idk i hope u come to ur sense too., before it’s too late

You moved on so fast. How did you do it? Because I’ve been trying to do it for the past two years.

miguelofthedark:

More here.

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divinemlee:

A continuation from my old post!

http://www.divinemlee.com/post/7339463597/faceoff

Elle’s bows!

Hailee’s halo!

Chloe’s horns!

Award parin sakin si Elle. But panalo silang tatlo! Gosh, ang bongga talaga ng bagets na toh!

Pagmay anak ako sana ganito sila! They remind me of Aryanna Epperson!

Much love,

D

YESS! Elle Fanning definitely won in this one!

So i had the weirdest dream today that made me burst in to tears. There is this one guy who liked me way back in high school and he was being sweet to me. I reciprocated the sweetness. i was thinking maybe the reason why he was in my dreams was because we’ve been chatting a lot lately. And lately I’ve been think what If I gave him a chance? But any way, the next scene was a me kissing some guy on a bus? Such a weird setting, but I imagined liking the kiss. In my dream I felt loved and indulge.I think this  represented my desire to be intimate with someone. ( not like sexually! But just be really close to someone and be able to trust him with my heart..cheesy as it sounds, btw this will get cheesier) Then all of a sudden I was in a college setting, then the sister of my ex showed up out of nowhere. A couple of minutes later her brother, my ex, showed up. The ex who broke my heart and left me for  another woman. Then all of a sudden, we were being sweet to each other. AAnd I was very about it. The guys that I flirted with in my dream, were not. They gave me a disappointed look. Their eyes say ” After all he did to you, you would choose him? over us?”.. But I could also remember having butterflies in my stomach when I was with my ex (in my dreams), just like the old days.so.. So I guess, this just means, that deep down, after all the efforts of moving on and forgetting about him, I’m still not over him.

I don’t really now why this keeps happening to me. Just when I thought I was finally moving on. Just when I’m starting to open my heart for possibility of new love. I thought I was over him. It’s been two years. Nothing that he did made me love him less. Even when he cheated on me, I;ll still take him back. He doesn’t have to do anything. Just be with me.. But he didn’t love me anymore. How do you completely forget someone, who you once thought was “The one” that you’re going to spend forever with? At a tender age of 17, I honestly felt he was The One. I felt that we could make it through anything as long as we’re together. I wanted him to be the first and the last one.

Someone tell me how can you really let someone go? How do you teach  your heart to forget?