I’m starting to remember the reason we broke up. It all make sense now. This sounds really bad. (Sorry for the myriad of grammar mistakes in this post)

MSG TO LDR BOYFRIEND:

thanks beb, for that one vid. so yea, ummm, i kinda have come to my senses somewhat…i think ive reached my boiling point tonight.
i wonder, when u make decisions, say, u wannna try to be more ‘adventurous”, and what not, and of course those decisions have strings attached, might require u to spend less time w/ me, more w/ other ppl who are moooree adventurous, idk,..i dk what in ur mind right now, anyway, i wonder if i;m part of the equation, wonder if u ask urself, is this decision gunna hurt her?.idk, may sound ridiculous to you. but yea, ive always thought that u care abt me, till recently(?) uve been acting like a complete immature jerk..there i said it. i hope it just doesnt get to the point that i lose my respect on you. try to go over our aim convos, u sound like a jerk, and that is not the normal u.
cuz if we want to rekindle this once wonderful relationship, the effort should not only come from me, but from both of us. i can get tired of chasing u, but in the end im not gunna regret it, if u do happen to dump me, cuz i kno i did everything i could to save this.. rnt u even scared of losing me? gah.. i ask that myseld everyday, makes me all the more unconfident.i kno it may be just a phase ur going to, and i hate to give up and not be there as ure going thru that phase, but if u dont want me to be in it, what can i do? If u want to end our relationship,go, but u wont get that mutual “vote” from me because i kno i still love u, and i care deeply abt u.
If it’s jsut the case of not having time, having conflicting sched, no physical contact( ikno this is a big prt of a relationship, i hate to be in this situation too as much as U do!, but if i can endure it, why cant you???WHY?), and if ure really that weak and ready to give up our relationship, go, but think thru it. I kno i’ve been repetitive recently, but it seems like ure not taking my point as seriously.idk i hope u come to ur sense too., before it’s too late